chaotic day/content day

cold day -breezy car wont start need a day to vent out.walk outside in cold burrr.not thinking about the cold all I want at the time is to get car started.enbarassed about if its cleaned out enough dont care just want it started.mom not thinking that there is jumper cables easy way to start.do get someone an angel to jump her alleluella.need of gas go to town.gas gone up it seems everytime i  am in need of gas i end up spending more.my hairs a mess not knowing or caring what to do with the mop of dreadlocks i am not dealing with it not happpy with it.it did turn out wonderful at the end.it is A BLESSING from the angels.the hairstylist not knowing am i gonna have to cut more inches off than what she really wants.it was breaking off i waited to long to get it cut.the time is now.no bleach it would damage more.finally headed down to a high school friend who i admire she gives me strengh she welcomes me in a a special way and does nice things for me.i feel today is like a dream because i am always dealing with  plenty of anxiety and i am gonna work harder what needs to be done.i pray that my mom gets the strengh she needs in her every day life and me and her can have our closeness.